I love angst. The more depressing the better.
The Crystal Cave, Mary Stewart
Born the bastard son of a Welsh princess, Myridden Emrys — or as he would later be known, Merlin — leads a perilous childhood, haunted by portents and visions. But destiny has great plans for this no-man’s-son, taking him from prophesying before the High King Vortigern to the crowning of Uther Pendragon, and the conception of Arthur - king once and always.
"You use even God to gain your ends. ‘It is God who tells me to do these things, it is God who exacts the price, it is God who sees that others should pay…’ For what, Merlin? Foryour ambition? For the great prophet and magician of whom men speak with bated breath and give more worship than they would a king or his high priest? And who is it pays this debt to God for carrying out your plans? Not you. The men who play your game for you, and pay the price. Ambrosius. Vortigern. Gorlois. These other men here tonight. But you pay nothing. Never you."
sometimes I think about how I speak to you guys more than my real life friends and that more than half of my friends on snapchat are my tumblr friends and I don’t know if that’s sad or really awesome
#my heart is shattering because of this photoset #I have to applaud colin for his acting because he has these expressions for merlin that utterly tear me apart #and they seem so insignificant #but merlin’s spent his entire life being more powerful than everyone else he knows #and yet he gets clothes thrown in his face every day #he could fucking obliterate those clothes #but he doesn’t because he’s good and loyal and faithful and courageous #courageous enough to let people think he’s little more than a servant #and that’s so brave #because as humans we want to say HEY I’M GOOD AT THIS SHIT and when people wrong us we want to stand up to them #and /prove/ that we’re stronger #and it takes so much inner strength to suppress that for the sake of others #and he does #and he never snaps (hell knows I would’ve eventually) and he never fully gives in no matter how tempting it becomes #because he’s strong #stronger than arthur will ever know#but despite it all when no ones looking #he’ll always give these raw expressions#his little moments of indulgence into that weaker part of him #that just cannot stand the life he adheres to #the cards he willingly deals himself day in and day out #for arthur’s sake #and colin is absolutely brilliant for putting merlin’s tiny moments of vulnerability on display #and every time I see them #my heart aches because no one will ever know just how beautiful merlin is #not even the person he cares for the most in the entire world
So I’m doing two things to celebrate my recent goal. Sadly the Q&A video will be delayed thanks to my webcam acting odd and the fact that I have had a bad cold. So I’m doing my updated follower forever before the video. (sorry for the graphic if it sucks, I’m still learning photoshop lol)My Alphas (hover for special messages lovelies)
adderallandsarcasm ♥ aegonmartell ♥ allisonaergint ♥ allisonagernt ♥ allisonargernts ♥ allisonarlgent ♥ allisonsargant ♥ alphavenger ♥ amagicfarbeyond ♥ ameliasgalaxy ♥ antilinski ♥ aredandhiswolf ♥ argentwolfs ♥ armyofghosts ♥ aryasunderfoot ♥ broodymchale ♥ burningupasun ♥ claraslastecho
rhaenastark ♥ roguestilinski ♥ shadowemrys ♥ shadowstihles ♥ shhadowstiles ♥ spicymisha ♥ squishcas ♥ sterekdimples ♥ stilnski ♥ thenemeton ♥ thethroneofasgard ♥ theweepingsorcerer ♥ tonhks ♥ tospock ♥ twerkingstilinski ♥ ughoechlin ♥ unknownclaras ♥ vodkacas ♥ werevolfs
The Packs That I Belong Too
All the Lovelies that follow me!
Sorry if the list seems shorter than my last one or that you should have been included and you weren’t. Sadly I wanted to add everyone of my mutual follows but then the list would be so long it would be ridiculous. I follow 900+ blogs atm. Just know that I love you all and no matter whether you are on this list or not, you can come talk to me because you guys are amazing and I love you all so much <33
ILY ALANA <333
a good response to the question “how old are you?” is something along the lines of “dunno i stopped counting after the first few centuries”
and it needs to be said seriously without smiling or humor or as casually as possible and followed by “so anyway” and a subject change as if it’s completely normal
“I just think I’ve always been sensitive and had difficulty containing my feelings, and I’ve always searched for outlets for that, because otherwise those feelings come out in chaotic ways that aren’t always great.”
OH HOT DAMN! → a font uh… rec post. or whatever you wanna call it.
TELL ME THAT SCHOOL ISN’T HARD
I KNOW YOU’RE GROWN UP
I KNOW YOU ARE MY PARENT
I KNOW YOU’VE ALREADY BEEN THROUGH THIS PART OF LIFE
BUT SCHOOL HAS GOTTEN HARDER
AND TEACHERS ARE UNFAIR TO ME AND ASSIGN TOO MUCH
AND THEY DON’T UNDERSTAND THAT WHEN I AM TIRED
I CANNOT DO WORK
I CANNOT SUCCEED ON A TEST
I CANNOT FUNCTION